hahaha shit. my life is shit. really
i am just so much more volatile nowadays, like i get pissed so damn easily. i used to be an ever smiling person, someone who would carry a smile on his face all the time. but now, inside i feel so empty i feel so screwed up. like a volcano waiting to explode.
last few days i was copying paul's work during physics class because eunice tay didnt want to let us off till we finished our physics problem so i showed her so that i could slack during recess then she asked whether i copied then i said yes then she told me to explain it to her so i went to discuss it with daniel lee and bentay then i wanted to explain how to do it to her then when i went up to her she started screaming random rubbish at me and started scolding me by screaming. and i got damn pissed lar i mean everyone is copying you want me explain then okay lar i understand i want explain to you THEN YOU BLOODY SCREAM AT ME. i was so damn pissed i just muttered "anything" and walked off. then she got damn pissed with me and the nextday she called up my mom and said all the bad stuff about me. like wtf eunice tay really is some shit lar i dont mind her seeing this I TELL YOU EUNICE TAY I HAVE LOST ALL RESPECT FOR YOU. YOU ARE NOT MY TEACHER, shithead.
so now my mom is very pissed with me after eunice tay bitch to her all the shit so ohwells i care uhh only her folly to believe a stupid bitch lar anyway my life is so damn screwed now she thinks im so useless shit who doesnt know shit and now she wants to do everything to me. she cuts my computer time, my tv time, my pocketmoney, and she wants to ban me from training waterpolo. like come on, waterpolo is what i love cant you just stay off and dont take away my passion? without waterpolo i am nothing, it is my identity that ties me to raffles, to my friends. damn it lar damn eunice tay!
argh my life really damn screwed. then i had to go talk cock some more.
Saturday, May 19, 2007
Saturday, May 12, 2007
aha yup we are INTERHOUSE WATERPOLO CHAMPIONS '07!
Bayley 2-1 Buckley
the team:
seetow
tom
weishen
justin
edene
kenneth
wenwei
mateusz
ziyao
i damn proud of this team! again in the final, we fought back from being a goal down to triumph over buckley! hahaha the team that we had come from 2 goals down in the preliminaries to draw 2-2! hahaha im damn proud of our players!
before the match, when i was giving them a peptalk, i was telling them about how this could very well be my last waterpolo match they had better give me their 100% and no less and whatever the result i would be happy, and to fight for bayley, to fight for me. and i started crying because i really wanted to end it off on a good note, like my swansong maybe. and give me their 100% they did. our first team was made up of me, tom, our angmoh power mateusz, ziyao, and edene, justin and kenneth. edene justin and kenneth are sec 2 swimmers and mateusz is a non poloer and swimmer and ziyao a sec 4 swimmer, but is just about the nicest ever guy you can find, and polo is a sport of aggression. player for player, we were weaker. but weaker only on paper. but when it came down to the wire, it was the mental toughness of our team that counted. we had trained together much more than buckley and it showed, with superb teamwork. aha you rock guys!
we came back during the preliminaries from 1 goal down to beat morrison 3-2 (thanks to a superb full court shot from who? who? the keeper!) and came from 2 goals down to draw buckley 2-2. and again, when it realy mattered, our mental strength showed again. after going one goal down we managed to claw our way back into the match and showed them who really had the stronger mental character. and we fought like true men. all the teachers who were there were damn impressed and mr edward ng (a senior HOD) was shouting his guts out for us. i guess true spirit does move people. hahaha
after the match, i talked to them again and thanked all of them for putting in that extra effort when it mattered again and i started sobbing again because for anyone of you who dont know me, waterpolo is my life, its my identity, its my game. and the feeling was just too overwhelming hahaha i guess im a very emotional person! hahaha anyway thank you very much guys if you all are reading this because i really owe you all a big one, for coming down to all the trainings i held, for fighting so damn hard to get us in the finals... (alot of houses thought we didnt deserve it because man for man, our team is the 4th strongest only) and for fighting your guts out in the final and touching the hearts of even the teachers in that final. i thank you all for fighting for this dream of mine too.
ohh and i played basketball too and i played half of of the first two games and we won both then i had to get a good rest before polo so i couldnt play anymore haha we got 2nd! which is great cos moor was kinda unbeatable their whole team ful of basketballers hahahaha anyway we did well! yay!!!
Bayley 2-1 Buckley
the team:
seetow
tom
weishen
justin
edene
kenneth
wenwei
mateusz
ziyao
i damn proud of this team! again in the final, we fought back from being a goal down to triumph over buckley! hahaha the team that we had come from 2 goals down in the preliminaries to draw 2-2! hahaha im damn proud of our players!
before the match, when i was giving them a peptalk, i was telling them about how this could very well be my last waterpolo match they had better give me their 100% and no less and whatever the result i would be happy, and to fight for bayley, to fight for me. and i started crying because i really wanted to end it off on a good note, like my swansong maybe. and give me their 100% they did. our first team was made up of me, tom, our angmoh power mateusz, ziyao, and edene, justin and kenneth. edene justin and kenneth are sec 2 swimmers and mateusz is a non poloer and swimmer and ziyao a sec 4 swimmer, but is just about the nicest ever guy you can find, and polo is a sport of aggression. player for player, we were weaker. but weaker only on paper. but when it came down to the wire, it was the mental toughness of our team that counted. we had trained together much more than buckley and it showed, with superb teamwork. aha you rock guys!
we came back during the preliminaries from 1 goal down to beat morrison 3-2 (thanks to a superb full court shot from who? who? the keeper!) and came from 2 goals down to draw buckley 2-2. and again, when it realy mattered, our mental strength showed again. after going one goal down we managed to claw our way back into the match and showed them who really had the stronger mental character. and we fought like true men. all the teachers who were there were damn impressed and mr edward ng (a senior HOD) was shouting his guts out for us. i guess true spirit does move people. hahaha
after the match, i talked to them again and thanked all of them for putting in that extra effort when it mattered again and i started sobbing again because for anyone of you who dont know me, waterpolo is my life, its my identity, its my game. and the feeling was just too overwhelming hahaha i guess im a very emotional person! hahaha anyway thank you very much guys if you all are reading this because i really owe you all a big one, for coming down to all the trainings i held, for fighting so damn hard to get us in the finals... (alot of houses thought we didnt deserve it because man for man, our team is the 4th strongest only) and for fighting your guts out in the final and touching the hearts of even the teachers in that final. i thank you all for fighting for this dream of mine too.
ohh and i played basketball too and i played half of of the first two games and we won both then i had to get a good rest before polo so i couldnt play anymore haha we got 2nd! which is great cos moor was kinda unbeatable their whole team ful of basketballers hahahaha anyway we did well! yay!!!
Thursday, May 03, 2007
haha its just sad you know, i put in so much, and there is no faith in me. i put it so much, ive loved it so much, its my life you know. and no faith is shown in me im kicked to the side like a little pebble, a little stopgap measure. is just that little bit of faith too much to show? i put my heart my soul into it and it just sucks la, really.
Saturday, April 28, 2007
haha yay we qualified for interhouse waterpolo finals on the 11th!
i seriously didnt think we would do very well in the interhouse waterpolo competition after the rule change and everything but we all fought our hardest, and despite not having the strongest team, only having one sec 4 swimmer whos not exactly the strongest (but definitely the most skilful of all the sec 4 swimmers), and filling the team with sec 2 swimmers. haha so our entry to the final was quite unexpected to say the least, and i think i was quite on form too. and we had a surprise package in mateusz benedict our foreign talent player from poland who doesnt train waterpolo but shoots like a pro hahaha well good job to bayley!
first match was hullett vs bayley. score: 0-4
it was good to play the supposedly weakest team (sorry guys from hullett) first because it gave our team a chance to gel and a chance to get into the groove, to get a feel of the ball. so we ended winning by a comfortable margin of 4-0 and got everyone into the game, starting to feel the ball and pass the ball around. haha highlight of the game as a keeper was when suddenly out of the blue jonny just rammed a shot damn top corner then i wasnt paying attention! luckily i was able to jump and tip it out or else id be embarrassed! hahaha
second match was morrison vs bayley. score: 2-3
this was the toughest match of all, because it pitted our sec 2 swimmers against their sec 4 swimmers, with the school players from both sides very evenly matched. on the bayley team was me and tom, keeper and centreback, whilst on the other team was brian he and shangcong, keeper and centreforward. haha so quite evenly matched but although at the start their sec 4 swimmers came in droves and overwhelmed us, our sec 2 swimmers edene, justin, kenneth and wenwei coped well and put in solid defensive performances. however, they did not count on mateusz who scored from almost half court area to equalise after we had gone down by 1 goal early on. then morrison got awarded a penalty and i was unable to stop jianying from scoring from that penalty. then tom equalised and right at the death, we nicked the win when i just crazily rammed the ball across the pitch without trying to lob or anything, just power it and it bounced quite luckily past brian. ful court goal ftw! and it ended up being the winning goal :) very proud of the guys who rallied from being 1 goal down at each time to eventually win the match!
next match was buckley vs bayley. score: 2-2
this match was the match we arguably played our worst. and we are gonna face buckley again in the final and i think they kinda figured out our gameplan already so we might be at a disadvantage in the finals but heck we are gonna pia! haha brandon scored and ornan scored before tom equalised with two goals of his own, the last coming in the last few seconds. haha and i saved brandon's lob and top corner bounce! hahaha :P our sec 2 swimmers again were superb defensively and completely shut out the people they were supposed to be marking during the second quarter. great job guys!
last match was moor vs bayley. score: 0-5
we had to at least draw this match to be sure of progressing to the final and boy, was this a classic. classic showdown between the two houses who were fighting for a place in the final. this match was a match we could not lose and mateusz made sure of it. he scored 2 goals in the first quarter and ziyao added another magnificent goal of his own to go 3-0 up by the end of the first quarter. by then, things started to get dirty. jiahao started to go on a rampage and started whacking people, and causing people to get hurt. apparently, moor team was quite incensed by the fact that i did not help them pick a ball that was about 2m away from me and pass it to them. haha how naive to think that way... when it is an opponent's foul the very first and foremost thing you should do is to raise both hands to show that you are not touching their ball, if you touch it (at nationals), you get ejected straight away. so i wasnt gonna commit that mistake nor was i about to give them an advantage by passing it to them... anyway we went 4-0 up and i started to slow down the tempo, passing the ball around my defence before it was passed back to me again and jiahao just chionged at me, i took foul, and he elbowed my face, our eyes connected he looked at me i looked at him, then he punched me in the stomach. like wtf man. anyway i forgive him i wont hold grudges because i know that when it comes to a game, people like him are very competitive but outside of it, we are friends. so im okay with it. anyway we eventually won 5-0 mateusz scored 4, ziyao scored 1. haha so we got into final this way.
many people see it as if we do not deserve to be in the finals. but i tell you why we do deserve. perhaps other people are sore that we do not have the strongest team of players but we still got into the finals. we had half a team of sec 2 swimmers, a player who did not swim nor play waterpolo, a sec 4 swimmer and two school waterpolo players. we did not seem strong individually but we played well as a team and we fought hard as individuals, and no one can claim that we do not deserve a place in the final (without lying or being dumb). we played a direct gameplan (my gameplan! very pro right...), played like chelsea (though i dont like them), and won our matches. contrary to what others think, we did not bend nor break the rules we just played by them and sometimes, we were lucky to have gotten favourable decisions by the ref. but hey, not our fault you cant fault us on that maybe its because we play totally non-violent waterpolo thats why decisions go our way most of the time.. after all its interhouse and we are not supposed to whack one another underwater or something like that right! anyway, we are in the final! see you on 11th may :)
and btw, omg i can do 31sec for 50 free! hahaha considering i dont train swimming, nor do i swim during polo trainings (i just tread water all day long), it is a good timing!
hahaha goodbye.
i seriously didnt think we would do very well in the interhouse waterpolo competition after the rule change and everything but we all fought our hardest, and despite not having the strongest team, only having one sec 4 swimmer whos not exactly the strongest (but definitely the most skilful of all the sec 4 swimmers), and filling the team with sec 2 swimmers. haha so our entry to the final was quite unexpected to say the least, and i think i was quite on form too. and we had a surprise package in mateusz benedict our foreign talent player from poland who doesnt train waterpolo but shoots like a pro hahaha well good job to bayley!
first match was hullett vs bayley. score: 0-4
it was good to play the supposedly weakest team (sorry guys from hullett) first because it gave our team a chance to gel and a chance to get into the groove, to get a feel of the ball. so we ended winning by a comfortable margin of 4-0 and got everyone into the game, starting to feel the ball and pass the ball around. haha highlight of the game as a keeper was when suddenly out of the blue jonny just rammed a shot damn top corner then i wasnt paying attention! luckily i was able to jump and tip it out or else id be embarrassed! hahaha
second match was morrison vs bayley. score: 2-3
this was the toughest match of all, because it pitted our sec 2 swimmers against their sec 4 swimmers, with the school players from both sides very evenly matched. on the bayley team was me and tom, keeper and centreback, whilst on the other team was brian he and shangcong, keeper and centreforward. haha so quite evenly matched but although at the start their sec 4 swimmers came in droves and overwhelmed us, our sec 2 swimmers edene, justin, kenneth and wenwei coped well and put in solid defensive performances. however, they did not count on mateusz who scored from almost half court area to equalise after we had gone down by 1 goal early on. then morrison got awarded a penalty and i was unable to stop jianying from scoring from that penalty. then tom equalised and right at the death, we nicked the win when i just crazily rammed the ball across the pitch without trying to lob or anything, just power it and it bounced quite luckily past brian. ful court goal ftw! and it ended up being the winning goal :) very proud of the guys who rallied from being 1 goal down at each time to eventually win the match!
next match was buckley vs bayley. score: 2-2
this match was the match we arguably played our worst. and we are gonna face buckley again in the final and i think they kinda figured out our gameplan already so we might be at a disadvantage in the finals but heck we are gonna pia! haha brandon scored and ornan scored before tom equalised with two goals of his own, the last coming in the last few seconds. haha and i saved brandon's lob and top corner bounce! hahaha :P our sec 2 swimmers again were superb defensively and completely shut out the people they were supposed to be marking during the second quarter. great job guys!
last match was moor vs bayley. score: 0-5
we had to at least draw this match to be sure of progressing to the final and boy, was this a classic. classic showdown between the two houses who were fighting for a place in the final. this match was a match we could not lose and mateusz made sure of it. he scored 2 goals in the first quarter and ziyao added another magnificent goal of his own to go 3-0 up by the end of the first quarter. by then, things started to get dirty. jiahao started to go on a rampage and started whacking people, and causing people to get hurt. apparently, moor team was quite incensed by the fact that i did not help them pick a ball that was about 2m away from me and pass it to them. haha how naive to think that way... when it is an opponent's foul the very first and foremost thing you should do is to raise both hands to show that you are not touching their ball, if you touch it (at nationals), you get ejected straight away. so i wasnt gonna commit that mistake nor was i about to give them an advantage by passing it to them... anyway we went 4-0 up and i started to slow down the tempo, passing the ball around my defence before it was passed back to me again and jiahao just chionged at me, i took foul, and he elbowed my face, our eyes connected he looked at me i looked at him, then he punched me in the stomach. like wtf man. anyway i forgive him i wont hold grudges because i know that when it comes to a game, people like him are very competitive but outside of it, we are friends. so im okay with it. anyway we eventually won 5-0 mateusz scored 4, ziyao scored 1. haha so we got into final this way.
many people see it as if we do not deserve to be in the finals. but i tell you why we do deserve. perhaps other people are sore that we do not have the strongest team of players but we still got into the finals. we had half a team of sec 2 swimmers, a player who did not swim nor play waterpolo, a sec 4 swimmer and two school waterpolo players. we did not seem strong individually but we played well as a team and we fought hard as individuals, and no one can claim that we do not deserve a place in the final (without lying or being dumb). we played a direct gameplan (my gameplan! very pro right...), played like chelsea (though i dont like them), and won our matches. contrary to what others think, we did not bend nor break the rules we just played by them and sometimes, we were lucky to have gotten favourable decisions by the ref. but hey, not our fault you cant fault us on that maybe its because we play totally non-violent waterpolo thats why decisions go our way most of the time.. after all its interhouse and we are not supposed to whack one another underwater or something like that right! anyway, we are in the final! see you on 11th may :)
and btw, omg i can do 31sec for 50 free! hahaha considering i dont train swimming, nor do i swim during polo trainings (i just tread water all day long), it is a good timing!
hahaha goodbye.
Friday, April 20, 2007
you know, ive always wondered... two years down the road, three years down, 10 years down. will what i have done in waterpolo here in raffles affect what will be done throughout those years? will i leave a lasting legacy? how has my involvement in waterpolo for raffles changed or shaped the cca for what it is today and what it will become tomorrow?
one of the practices of The Leadership Challenge is to leave a legacy, and i wonder what legacy i have left or what legacy i can leave for my juniors to continue or to surpass. it strikes me that having given up 4-5 days a week of my life for 2 years just to train waterpolo, i havent had anything to show for it, i havent left anything behind to allow others to follow. what legacy have i left or what legacy can i leave?
i wonder, what i have trained so hard for 2 years for. to get suaned by a stupid musical group who get top 20 in singapore while we got 4th in singapore? why, even outram are better than them they got 6th in singapore! why did i train so hard for 2 years?
everytime i think about it i get so damned pissed like who gave them the bloody right to criticise our achievements. by criticising our achievements they are in turn criticising our efforts, our process. who are they to bloody criticise us when we train at least 5 times a week and they? they stepped up their training to a very intensive 3 times a week during holidays WOW im so impressed laaaa
its just insensitive people like these who get me down. just when i thought i was accepting it for what it is when such comments came in that really hurt me it brought back all the pain that i had experienced thats why i so damn hate you you understand or not you retard. gold so what i dont give a shit you are only top 20 in singapore but we are top 4 in singapore no basis for comparison at all.
im pissed.
one of the practices of The Leadership Challenge is to leave a legacy, and i wonder what legacy i have left or what legacy i can leave for my juniors to continue or to surpass. it strikes me that having given up 4-5 days a week of my life for 2 years just to train waterpolo, i havent had anything to show for it, i havent left anything behind to allow others to follow. what legacy have i left or what legacy can i leave?
i wonder, what i have trained so hard for 2 years for. to get suaned by a stupid musical group who get top 20 in singapore while we got 4th in singapore? why, even outram are better than them they got 6th in singapore! why did i train so hard for 2 years?
everytime i think about it i get so damned pissed like who gave them the bloody right to criticise our achievements. by criticising our achievements they are in turn criticising our efforts, our process. who are they to bloody criticise us when we train at least 5 times a week and they? they stepped up their training to a very intensive 3 times a week during holidays WOW im so impressed laaaa
its just insensitive people like these who get me down. just when i thought i was accepting it for what it is when such comments came in that really hurt me it brought back all the pain that i had experienced thats why i so damn hate you you understand or not you retard. gold so what i dont give a shit you are only top 20 in singapore but we are top 4 in singapore no basis for comparison at all.
im pissed.
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
i love being raffles! 3 golds in 2 days who says our sports suck?
SEE THAT CO? we sports are more than capable of achieving gold, and this gold is achieved by being the top school in the nation, not just one of the 20+ schools who got gold (according to a friend) hahah go ri sports groups and syf groups!
yesterday, our table tennis c boys won us our first REAL gold of the year, after battling to a 3-1 win over cat high in the final! yaye for those guys who were involved they really did us proud, especially c boys bringing back our first gold. then today it was us b boys' turn to turn on the style, winning the cross country b div gold and trampoline b div gold! hahah come on ri sportsmen, these successes are for all of you! and in sports, if you are in the top 4 in the country, you get 4th. but for CO... even though their chairman pointed out they got gold, their gold is gotten from being the top 20 in country. wow impressive! (to cake: sorry man this last time k!)
anyway nice one guys i love raffles! this is the feeling of being raffles man. anyway looks like holiday is forthcoming from the ever generous mr mag (who is very handsome if he ever chances upon this blog so that he would give us more half days)
and today i went to swim tons and tons at my condo pool! okay it was tons and tons for me since i hate swimming laps but for swimmers its chicken feet but hey im still training myself to have even stronger stamina so i can last at my peak for all four quarters during a game rather than getting fatigued hahaha
SEE THAT CO? we sports are more than capable of achieving gold, and this gold is achieved by being the top school in the nation, not just one of the 20+ schools who got gold (according to a friend) hahah go ri sports groups and syf groups!
yesterday, our table tennis c boys won us our first REAL gold of the year, after battling to a 3-1 win over cat high in the final! yaye for those guys who were involved they really did us proud, especially c boys bringing back our first gold. then today it was us b boys' turn to turn on the style, winning the cross country b div gold and trampoline b div gold! hahah come on ri sportsmen, these successes are for all of you! and in sports, if you are in the top 4 in the country, you get 4th. but for CO... even though their chairman pointed out they got gold, their gold is gotten from being the top 20 in country. wow impressive! (to cake: sorry man this last time k!)
anyway nice one guys i love raffles! this is the feeling of being raffles man. anyway looks like holiday is forthcoming from the ever generous mr mag (who is very handsome if he ever chances upon this blog so that he would give us more half days)
and today i went to swim tons and tons at my condo pool! okay it was tons and tons for me since i hate swimming laps but for swimmers its chicken feet but hey im still training myself to have even stronger stamina so i can last at my peak for all four quarters during a game rather than getting fatigued hahaha
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
yeah rimb didnt get honours! like walaoooo how can that be.
i think our batch of raffles is screwing up quite badly now i dont know why sports quite bad now even musical groups quite bad. haha co have been celebrating like mad that they got gold (when theres always this prize called gold with honours) but theirs isnt really an achievement considering that gold is shared by like 20+ schools and i heard from a very "credible" source that this year gold standard is like last syf's silver standard. yup. proud for what? suan us sports groups for what? go to hell la you all have no standard no basis of comparison with us. we sports group are top 4 in country top 6 in country. CO? top 20+ in country. OMG IMPRESSIVE LAAAA
today i went to look for the mr leo guy the psychologist after putting it off for so long because like even when i look like im already okay but i cant get over waterpolo. no more dream, nothing else to fight for. and the thing that i fought for we eventually screwed it up so i went to look for that psychologist guy to talk to then he talk talk talk about it well it was rather good la haha i think hes a cool guy! then he gave me some help in trying to get over the loss of the season and stuff like that so it was good!
today's math test i think i screwed it up because i didnt really practice much. i practiced abit during tuition but that was all! haha i spent yesterday studying time staring at equations trying to memorise them and today i spent my time to study staring at those same equations because i realised that i forgot most of the equations after a good night's rest HAHA well so i guess i didnt do very well la. if i pass, id say id be fortunate. i didnt calculate how many marks i lost already cos that would be quite demoralising hahaha
today i went back to train again i realised i lost quite abit of my sharpness already and interhouse is this friday! AHHHH hahaha anyway if i cant regain the sharpness then i let kaiyu play la nevermind i dont play after all kaiyu never played interhouse polo before let him play lor :) im so nice! haha
okay anyway cheer up all rimb guys la you all worked hard for this already the standard of gold is like the standard of honours in last year's syf so dont worry okay you all worked hard put in your best so have no regrets! : D STUPID CO. i think CO sucks (with the exception of cake)
i think our batch of raffles is screwing up quite badly now i dont know why sports quite bad now even musical groups quite bad. haha co have been celebrating like mad that they got gold (when theres always this prize called gold with honours) but theirs isnt really an achievement considering that gold is shared by like 20+ schools and i heard from a very "credible" source that this year gold standard is like last syf's silver standard. yup. proud for what? suan us sports groups for what? go to hell la you all have no standard no basis of comparison with us. we sports group are top 4 in country top 6 in country. CO? top 20+ in country. OMG IMPRESSIVE LAAAA
today i went to look for the mr leo guy the psychologist after putting it off for so long because like even when i look like im already okay but i cant get over waterpolo. no more dream, nothing else to fight for. and the thing that i fought for we eventually screwed it up so i went to look for that psychologist guy to talk to then he talk talk talk about it well it was rather good la haha i think hes a cool guy! then he gave me some help in trying to get over the loss of the season and stuff like that so it was good!
today's math test i think i screwed it up because i didnt really practice much. i practiced abit during tuition but that was all! haha i spent yesterday studying time staring at equations trying to memorise them and today i spent my time to study staring at those same equations because i realised that i forgot most of the equations after a good night's rest HAHA well so i guess i didnt do very well la. if i pass, id say id be fortunate. i didnt calculate how many marks i lost already cos that would be quite demoralising hahaha
today i went back to train again i realised i lost quite abit of my sharpness already and interhouse is this friday! AHHHH hahaha anyway if i cant regain the sharpness then i let kaiyu play la nevermind i dont play after all kaiyu never played interhouse polo before let him play lor :) im so nice! haha
okay anyway cheer up all rimb guys la you all worked hard for this already the standard of gold is like the standard of honours in last year's syf so dont worry okay you all worked hard put in your best so have no regrets! : D STUPID CO. i think CO sucks (with the exception of cake)
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
congrats rj! fantastic win over hwachong la in the final like totally steamrolled them... 5-1 the final score hahaha and it was mainly due to the gulf in keepers... clement in hwachong goal vs yihong in rj goal... you think who better? now that i wont say of course :)
anyway fantastic achievement la and congrats to all rj players, especially zhizhi hanson nicky weejin sean! the fantastic j1 batch that led us last year into battle. seeing you all win is like winning it myself i feel your joy, i feel your happiness. its just so infectious and i want to have it too!
4th is not enough la 4th is like shit like that dont train 2 years also can get 4th! but hahaha you give me 3rd i also dont want 3rd or 4th to me also same, worthless. i wanted to play in final today la... i wanted to play very very much but then again, we were deprived of this chance because of certain cheats... -----> hint: winners of the tournament arent usually the team with the most integrity.
anyway fantastic achievement la and congrats to all rj players, especially zhizhi hanson nicky weejin sean! the fantastic j1 batch that led us last year into battle. seeing you all win is like winning it myself i feel your joy, i feel your happiness. its just so infectious and i want to have it too!
4th is not enough la 4th is like shit like that dont train 2 years also can get 4th! but hahaha you give me 3rd i also dont want 3rd or 4th to me also same, worthless. i wanted to play in final today la... i wanted to play very very much but then again, we were deprived of this chance because of certain cheats... -----> hint: winners of the tournament arent usually the team with the most integrity.
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
it just took everything out of me, everything.
every single year, i have to be strong. strong for what? it was a dream i had, i dream i cherished for 2 whole freaking years, a dream our team fought for for two whole years. two damn years. two damn years i had this dream, to play in front of hundreds of my schoolmates at ccab, to win that gold for my school. two damn freaking long years.
typical. it never happened. luck, lousy refereeing, all played a part. it is tough to always come up short, when you know you have the ability to make a serious impact. its tough to have to be strong. last year i fought for my senior's batch when faith was shown in me and i was called to action against barker. i fought my best but lost and i cried my heart out.
but this year, it was my last chance. i really gave it my all, i never spared anything, nothing could take anything away from me. but it still wasnt enough. maybe its just me, maybe im not good enough.
this team is great. our teamwork is great, our trust for one another is unbelievable, and we just have the faith that every member of the team has the ability to bail another out in times of difficulty. but it just didnt happen, why? shit you ref, whitehaired idiot.
past two days, ive been crying like nobody's business. its tough to accept the reality, that my dream has been shattered. nothing is left of it, nothing to show of it. it has taken everything out of me. i feel like a wandering sheep, lost from its herd and without a shepherd to show it the way, i feel aimless, like nothing to drive myself towards. its tough, real tough.
today, i cried in school too. i went to hand up my chinese essay on "meng yuan", which is about your dreams and ideals and some crap, and in there i just wrote everything i felt into that piece of paper, which really lightened my burden. after that i went to hand up to teacher at her staff room, then she read it and started talking to me about my season. then i started crying because i just couldnt accept the truth that this dream of mine, this dream which i have sacrificed everything for, these 2 years of my life that i have spent just for this chance, has just been shattered. lucky got only two of us in the corridor if not i damn paiseh leh.
i hate being a keeper. as a keeper, you will be the one who feels the most guilt, who takes it upon yourself to earn the team results. you expect that much from yourself, yet sometimes, it is just too much. im tired, im really tired. i dont know whether i still want that number 1 over my head, or is going without it a more viable option. i dont know.
my future remains unclear. and my confidence is broken.
its gonna be a rough time for me this year.
every single year, i have to be strong. strong for what? it was a dream i had, i dream i cherished for 2 whole freaking years, a dream our team fought for for two whole years. two damn years. two damn years i had this dream, to play in front of hundreds of my schoolmates at ccab, to win that gold for my school. two damn freaking long years.
typical. it never happened. luck, lousy refereeing, all played a part. it is tough to always come up short, when you know you have the ability to make a serious impact. its tough to have to be strong. last year i fought for my senior's batch when faith was shown in me and i was called to action against barker. i fought my best but lost and i cried my heart out.
but this year, it was my last chance. i really gave it my all, i never spared anything, nothing could take anything away from me. but it still wasnt enough. maybe its just me, maybe im not good enough.
this team is great. our teamwork is great, our trust for one another is unbelievable, and we just have the faith that every member of the team has the ability to bail another out in times of difficulty. but it just didnt happen, why? shit you ref, whitehaired idiot.
past two days, ive been crying like nobody's business. its tough to accept the reality, that my dream has been shattered. nothing is left of it, nothing to show of it. it has taken everything out of me. i feel like a wandering sheep, lost from its herd and without a shepherd to show it the way, i feel aimless, like nothing to drive myself towards. its tough, real tough.
today, i cried in school too. i went to hand up my chinese essay on "meng yuan", which is about your dreams and ideals and some crap, and in there i just wrote everything i felt into that piece of paper, which really lightened my burden. after that i went to hand up to teacher at her staff room, then she read it and started talking to me about my season. then i started crying because i just couldnt accept the truth that this dream of mine, this dream which i have sacrificed everything for, these 2 years of my life that i have spent just for this chance, has just been shattered. lucky got only two of us in the corridor if not i damn paiseh leh.
i hate being a keeper. as a keeper, you will be the one who feels the most guilt, who takes it upon yourself to earn the team results. you expect that much from yourself, yet sometimes, it is just too much. im tired, im really tired. i dont know whether i still want that number 1 over my head, or is going without it a more viable option. i dont know.
my future remains unclear. and my confidence is broken.
its gonna be a rough time for me this year.
Monday, April 02, 2007
Sunday, April 01, 2007
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Friday, March 30, 2007
its now late and tomorrow early morning i have a bayley meeting
but im feeling something that i have to blog about la.
.
having been a rafflesian for more than 3 years, it seems so bittersweet that in less 3 terms later, we will all be graduating from this school i can safely call my home. it has been a terrific home to me, dynamic, challenging, and full of people i know and love (not gay okay).
yet come monday, my years at ri will be put through an arduous and gruelling test. acsi. sometimes i feel that my life as a rafflesian is really complete, that my learning journey throughout my entire ri experience has really been great and ive tried to be the best person i could've been to all my friends throughout this journey they have made together with me.
yet somehow, there is something missing from this rafflesian experience that ive had. and that is glory, that is winning back something for the school. throughout my rafflesian life, it has been ingrained into me, into the badge i wear proudly over my breast, that raffles is the winning formula, the one destined to triumph over all obstacles.
and come monday, acsi beckon. and it is going to be no mean feat. i would consider myself as a rafflesian to be incomplete without ever playing in a national inter schools final, in front of a few hundred screaming and cheering boys, just for that shot at gold, just for that final shot at glory for my beloved school.
i am proud to say that i am a rafflesian. i am proud to say that i have lived the rafflesian way of life (including al the late nights and chionging of work and whatnots) and i am proud of being a rafflesian in general. YET THIS PRIDE IS NOT ENOUGH. i want to have something to show for my time here, something i can give back to the school, a legacy i want to leave for the school, for later batches of rafflesians. i dont want this unique rafflesian experience to just become a distant memory in my head. i want to win for the school.
i am one who feels very strongly for the school, and i will do anything within my capacity to get my team into the final of b boys waterpolo, and i know its gonna be hard, its gonna be tough, but i swear, im gonna fight. fight for my team, fight for the school, fight for raffles. its gonna be a hard fight and an unforgettable one. let this unforgettable battle be a victorious one. im not ready to just hope for a better age. i want to strive, i want to fight for this better age. i want to leave a legacy. raffles is what ive loved, what ive known and what i am. i better fight hard on monday.
no regrets.
but im feeling something that i have to blog about la.
.
having been a rafflesian for more than 3 years, it seems so bittersweet that in less 3 terms later, we will all be graduating from this school i can safely call my home. it has been a terrific home to me, dynamic, challenging, and full of people i know and love (not gay okay).
yet come monday, my years at ri will be put through an arduous and gruelling test. acsi. sometimes i feel that my life as a rafflesian is really complete, that my learning journey throughout my entire ri experience has really been great and ive tried to be the best person i could've been to all my friends throughout this journey they have made together with me.
yet somehow, there is something missing from this rafflesian experience that ive had. and that is glory, that is winning back something for the school. throughout my rafflesian life, it has been ingrained into me, into the badge i wear proudly over my breast, that raffles is the winning formula, the one destined to triumph over all obstacles.
and come monday, acsi beckon. and it is going to be no mean feat. i would consider myself as a rafflesian to be incomplete without ever playing in a national inter schools final, in front of a few hundred screaming and cheering boys, just for that shot at gold, just for that final shot at glory for my beloved school.
i am proud to say that i am a rafflesian. i am proud to say that i have lived the rafflesian way of life (including al the late nights and chionging of work and whatnots) and i am proud of being a rafflesian in general. YET THIS PRIDE IS NOT ENOUGH. i want to have something to show for my time here, something i can give back to the school, a legacy i want to leave for the school, for later batches of rafflesians. i dont want this unique rafflesian experience to just become a distant memory in my head. i want to win for the school.
i am one who feels very strongly for the school, and i will do anything within my capacity to get my team into the final of b boys waterpolo, and i know its gonna be hard, its gonna be tough, but i swear, im gonna fight. fight for my team, fight for the school, fight for raffles. its gonna be a hard fight and an unforgettable one. let this unforgettable battle be a victorious one. im not ready to just hope for a better age. i want to strive, i want to fight for this better age. i want to leave a legacy. raffles is what ive loved, what ive known and what i am. i better fight hard on monday.
no regrets.
Monday, March 26, 2007
Thursday, March 22, 2007
okay now i feel like blogging!
yesterday we beat chinese high 8-6 in waterpolo and i played all four quarters (with a slight absence of a minute when i cramped out and brian he was sent in before jiaolian recalled my services. haha not performance from me at least i was stable and didnt let many low shots in... but lucky for me, chinese high didnt shoot many low shots too. haha ohwells woosheng bet with me that he'd gimme 10 bucks and cut his hair bald if i conceded LESS than 5 goals but shit la, i conceded 5 (brian conceded 1 while i was cramping).
anyway it was a really great game and it is really quite a wonder that i can speak so sanely now because yesterday was just ONE BIG CRAZY DAY. like i couldnt sleep at all on tuesday night i just looked up the ceiling and turned around in bed but i just couldnt sleep... TOO DAMN NERVOUS. then in school i just sat at my seat with my mouth open like a goldfish and feeling tons of stress and the weight of expectation. haha really quite frightening but in the end, hey i did quite well so yeah.
anyway, i really respect the chinese high guys! they fought really hard, and so did we, and that made it a great match and a fantastic exhibition of b division standard waterpolo. our juniors were there watching us too so i hope they got some lessons of waterpolo out of that match too... and shek (my junior) said that i was fantastic! well i feel so good now :D
and today i went to school and just sat at my place and couldnt concentrate at all... just smiling all the way and prompted my chinese teacher to say that i looked damn pervert cos i was just smiling at her damn blissfully and thinking about yesterday's match... haha ohwells im innocent okay!
i hope we can play hwachong in the final because the fighting spirit that both teams have is really commendable and we respect one another because neither team "cheats" by playing overage players. so thats kinda good too and we provide good attacking waterpolo so thats another plus point. ohwells good luck chinese high!
okay next up BARKER on monday and we better when this and we're most probably through to the finals... but barker is tough. but im ready.
oh and btw i think chinese high damn lucky they got a cool coach renkai hahahaha i know him cos last time u18 we play then i was keeping and hwachong jc got a corner but i refuse to pass them the ball to wait for my team to get back in defence then he laugh at me and talk to me afterwards LOL
yesterday we beat chinese high 8-6 in waterpolo and i played all four quarters (with a slight absence of a minute when i cramped out and brian he was sent in before jiaolian recalled my services. haha not performance from me at least i was stable and didnt let many low shots in... but lucky for me, chinese high didnt shoot many low shots too. haha ohwells woosheng bet with me that he'd gimme 10 bucks and cut his hair bald if i conceded LESS than 5 goals but shit la, i conceded 5 (brian conceded 1 while i was cramping).
anyway it was a really great game and it is really quite a wonder that i can speak so sanely now because yesterday was just ONE BIG CRAZY DAY. like i couldnt sleep at all on tuesday night i just looked up the ceiling and turned around in bed but i just couldnt sleep... TOO DAMN NERVOUS. then in school i just sat at my seat with my mouth open like a goldfish and feeling tons of stress and the weight of expectation. haha really quite frightening but in the end, hey i did quite well so yeah.
anyway, i really respect the chinese high guys! they fought really hard, and so did we, and that made it a great match and a fantastic exhibition of b division standard waterpolo. our juniors were there watching us too so i hope they got some lessons of waterpolo out of that match too... and shek (my junior) said that i was fantastic! well i feel so good now :D
and today i went to school and just sat at my place and couldnt concentrate at all... just smiling all the way and prompted my chinese teacher to say that i looked damn pervert cos i was just smiling at her damn blissfully and thinking about yesterday's match... haha ohwells im innocent okay!
i hope we can play hwachong in the final because the fighting spirit that both teams have is really commendable and we respect one another because neither team "cheats" by playing overage players. so thats kinda good too and we provide good attacking waterpolo so thats another plus point. ohwells good luck chinese high!
okay next up BARKER on monday and we better when this and we're most probably through to the finals... but barker is tough. but im ready.
oh and btw i think chinese high damn lucky they got a cool coach renkai hahahaha i know him cos last time u18 we play then i was keeping and hwachong jc got a corner but i refuse to pass them the ball to wait for my team to get back in defence then he laugh at me and talk to me afterwards LOL
Monday, March 12, 2007
haha this period is like the apex of my sec 4 life. after 9th april my sec 4 life will just be a drone, i will just be an aimless raffles zombie hanging around after school with no cca to go to. haha i will feel damn aimless!
to me, this is the most important time of my ri life, possibly of my life so far. cos this time is when i put into use all of what i have learnt in my waterpolo journey thus far. subconsciously, this is what ive been working towards the past 1 and a quarter years, just aiming for my own chance to shine.
last year was when i was still sec 3, a greenhorn in nationals, having not played a game before. In our first game i had to play because our keeper injured himself so i had to take his place against a strong barker team and we played freaking well inclusive of myself but we still managed to lose 6-5 omg i was devastated.
i want to right all the wrongs i want to fight for myself, fight for the team, fight to put a smile on jiaolian's face, fight for the school! i want to bring back a gold for the school, i want to put raffles waterpolo back to where it belongs.
and about myself now. I STILL CANT GET TO THOSE LOW SHOTS omg i suck at low shots wtf howwww DIE omg i hate myself la arghhh those high shots im like damn imba but low shots... what the heck la how how how can anyone help me anot.
argh im freaking out. haha =(
tomorrow theres camp again and im waiting for my good friend to come back from shanghai. msn is just so boring la... :(
to me, this is the most important time of my ri life, possibly of my life so far. cos this time is when i put into use all of what i have learnt in my waterpolo journey thus far. subconsciously, this is what ive been working towards the past 1 and a quarter years, just aiming for my own chance to shine.
last year was when i was still sec 3, a greenhorn in nationals, having not played a game before. In our first game i had to play because our keeper injured himself so i had to take his place against a strong barker team and we played freaking well inclusive of myself but we still managed to lose 6-5 omg i was devastated.
i want to right all the wrongs i want to fight for myself, fight for the team, fight to put a smile on jiaolian's face, fight for the school! i want to bring back a gold for the school, i want to put raffles waterpolo back to where it belongs.
and about myself now. I STILL CANT GET TO THOSE LOW SHOTS omg i suck at low shots wtf howwww DIE omg i hate myself la arghhh those high shots im like damn imba but low shots... what the heck la how how how can anyone help me anot.
argh im freaking out. haha =(
tomorrow theres camp again and im waiting for my good friend to come back from shanghai. msn is just so boring la... :(
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