this will be the last post of 2006.

ahh how time flies. haha i remember it just like yesterday when i was a sec 2 eagerly anticipating the climb up into upper sec life at raffles. hah

2006 wasnt by any standards a great year for me anyway. haha a 4th in nationals for waterpolo made everything sour. worked so hard for it and we screwed it up. we can talk everything about what a great team spirit we had (we really did!) but when it mattered, we screwed it up. it better not happen again in 2007. next year is our year, and im determined not to screw it up. for myself, for the team.

2006 was also a year of change, a year of gradual maturity maybe? haha i feel that i matured alot during 2006, but whether i did isnt exactly for me to judge la. maybe its for others to see what i have done and maybe tell me whether i really did mature as i felt i did. haha

this year was also a year of relative hardship, adjusting to sec 3 life, a flurry of teacher changes at the halfway point of the year further complicating matters and maybe a less than impressive gpa compounding things even further. haha but i hope next year will be better. and i hope i will be more committed too.

2006 was also maybe a reality check for me. i went into 2006 wanting to be a psl, and to make a difference to the next batch of rafflesians coming into ri, to show them the ropes, to inspire in them my own personal view of what the rafflesian spirit is and to cultivate it in them. haha but i guess it was never to be la. still quite sad about it but i guess stuff is just like that la. some things you get and some things you dont. haha i was working for a position in our waterpolo exco too, making myself more credible, as someone to be depended on. haha but our exco still hasnt been decided i think. lol

i guess 2006 was kind of a trying year for me. but maybe its from those trials and tribulations that one can take the most from, and learn the most, to become a better person in the future. maybe la. haha

in 2006 i grew much closer to my dad too. haha in recent years he has been spending much time in china and i only get to see him 1 week every month so we have been quite distant. haha but during the holidays i saw alot of him and maybe rediscovered my dad haha and i now realise where i get my talk rubbish genes from la. haha he is talk cock king lol so thats quite satisfying. i love my family (:


and onto 2007, which i look forward to with great anticipation.

i shall work hard to make this a year to remember, both personally and as a team. with new commitments this year (bayley house vice capt) and my duty as a senior in waterpolo. to guide new sec 1s in their transition into raffles and much much more.

2007 is a great year of promise. i wont set any goals for myself to achieve because all i want myself to do is to try my hardest and do my best in whatever i do, and never to let anyone down. quite tough, but i hope to do that la. and of course, top of my agenda would be training hard and fighting hard for that gold medal that is so almost within our grasp. we know we have the capability but do we have to determination and the drive to cross that final hurdle?

2007 is maybe a year of letting go, of letting go of things, of dreams that would never happen. our childhood is past us already, and though as much as we want to relive it, its gone and maybe its time to face reality. but i wont let go of the gold. its mine and i want it

it is also a year to get to know my friends better, to let become a better friend to others. haha whenever i have been selfish or shown any disregard for any friend's feelings, i hope that'll change in 2007. let me enjoy the company of friends and let them enjoy my company. (:

okay i guess thats it from me today. really exhausted la just came back from beijing at 7am this morning. havent slept since but its okay la i slept like a pig in beijing hahaha.

and about the bombings in bangkok. just read cake's blog and his post on it brought me to see it in a different light. at first after hearing the bombings i was like "omg heng! i was like at that place where the bomb exploded 2 weeks ago!" but now i understand how cake's feeling and im thinking the way he is.

brings my thoughts back to 2006 and how we all lost a friend. how precious life is. i hope 2007 will be one without such but now all we can do is to keep him in our memories. these memories, his smile, his laugh, bring tears to my eyes. but i guess we all have to move on. and ill go take a shower.

and here, seetow wishes anyone who reads this a pleasant year ahead.

good luck

haha im now blogging from the airport terminal 2

haha leaving for china later at around 4 plus and i hope its gonna be fun! itll be -30 degrees there in beijing and harbin and haha its quite daunting la to say the least. but at lesat i hope itll be fun lor

haha thailand was great la i planned it okay! and with a very small budget too haha we took budget air there for the first time and i must say the experience sucked so im never ever taking budget air again. haha we stayed at some nice quiet hotel (i booked it, thank you very much) and it was nice and comfy. haha not bad la right!

haha first day in thailand this taxi driver wanted to con us. but then i already like did all the research how to get to the hotel from the airport so he tried to bring us some other road but i told him its this road and that road hahahaha and some more my dad showed him the way on gprs so there was no way he could con us. stupid noob

haha okay ill blog more about thailand next time when i come back. oh and btw, i havent started on homework. hahahaha ggxx-ed!

haha okay im here blogging again.

this post is the explain my absence from the blogosphere from tomorrow, 15th of december to the 30th of december 2006. so thats means ill be spending christmas in a foreign land. ):

haha anyway you guys better miss me! haha ill be missing everyone. and missing a friendly against malacca youth team too. frankly, id rather go for the friendly la haha but then cant do anything about it so there. so goodbye everyone and do miss me!

oh and last night newcastle lost to chelsea on chelsea's home turf. no points, yet full of glory. the loss was not without a whimper, instead, we went down with a huge shout, almost taking a point, yet eventually falling short. nevermind, we live to fight another day! howay-the-lads!

haha this new blogger beta thing looks very weird and unfamiliar to use but aiyah never mind la the basic uses are still the same..

anyway haha today i spent alot of time playing football manager 07 and watching GOONG on youtube! hahaha okay maybe not so much time la haha im on the fourth episode and its very intriguing! (another word for it would be addictive) hahahah

haha the show is super funny! LOL and i cant stand funny shows ill definitely watch them hahaha oh no and i still have commonwealth essay and chinese book report to do. how leh how leh DIE die die

haha anyway i think the shin guy prince is some sort of an asshole in the first four episodes and i duno what else is gonna happen but im burning to find out more! haha but now its early in the morning and i ought to be off to bed. haha why did i get myself into watching korean drama serials!?!? now i addicted already hahahaha later i turn out like jinsei...

oh and newcastle won again! 3-1 win away at ewood park against blackburn! that makes three straight wins for us omg this is the best man! woohoo! martins scored 2 and taylor scored the other one hahaha yay! martins is the black-burner! (to burn is to outpace your defender and boy is he fast man!) haha

obafemi martins!

today during tuition we got to watch some korean drama princess hours hahahaha and it was funny! haha maybe ill get the chance to watch it more... haha i want to watch! oh no isnt watching korean drama serials supposed to be like a female thing... haha ohwells but its nice okay!

haha then we had to do a passage about how the japanese women think korean men are all so perfect and everthing. haha see already also want to laugh! hahaha too bad they are not acquainted with ri's very own korean boy, jun jinsei, if not their impression of korean males would very likely change dramatically haahaha

and today training was quite screwed up haha i wasnt even concentrating properly la then was standing throughout the match while we are training hahahaha how slack i always try to get the shallow end of the pool so can stand. but not all can stand okay! need to have a certain height like me then can okay! hehe

monday we playing saint andrews secondary and junior college combined haha duno about the jc but looking forward to playing the secondary side! got quite a few people we know la like aaron and pradip (is that how you spell his name) and paul and benedict (more fondly known as _________ ) haha so looking forward to playing them! but quite apprehensive about playing their jc side la playing jc sides are always tough cos they are 2 years older than you...

haha anyway im really looking forward to the trips ill be having! haha going to thailand is always great cos got alot of stuff to buy... though im not the shopping type, having been lost in orchard road before (yes i know im hopeless) hahahah

then theres china. which is gonna be real cold i hear but hey i can tahan okay! at least i hope i can... hah gotta bring alot of cold clothing and wear 2 pieces of underwear at one time (LOL IM KIDDING)

haha anyway, its late. or rather very early in the morning and im tired. haha i still havent got about to uploading those pictures of my class and the funny business that happens within those 4 walls but i really miss my class and sad to say, i miss school too. hah and next year will be our year to win polo nationals already so im really looking forward to sec 4! its our senior year too!

hey, im back updating this tiny little space again!

ahh my phone is damaged and super erratic so tomorrow im gonna bring it to the motorola repair shop for repairs so that it can function normally again. haha i didnt take care of it well enough la... haha if anyone interested in getting a new phone right, i dont recommend motorola la haha the design damn nice but not hardy like nokia phones. duno about sony ericsson though next phone ill get probably will be that lor in maybe a years time hahahah

haha oh and i got my printer back working again! my mom bought a new ink cartridge cos the old one was incompatible and i was lazy to go buy so i changed it and now its back working. not bad la now dont have to keep asking favour from tom who himself has a very erratic printer hahahaha

nowadays i like training (ri trainings that is) alot because it takes the mind off alot of things, alot of worries la haha. very fun too, and can laugh at how jiaolian scolds people and if he scold you can bitch about him behind his back hahaha

anyway, i going holiday from 15th to 19th to thailand and 21st to 31st to beijing and other different north eastern parts of china la. haha sounds quite fun right.. i hope it is lor! ehh got any friends out there done finish chinese du shu bao gao and cwealth essay anot? its times like these when you know whether you have friends anot eh? haha

haha okay i wont babble so much. gotta go sleep then get up early in the morning to get my phone repaired and rush off for training! haha i get high on training. goodbye!

wahh i tell you i swear when im stronger than jiao lian ill kill him!

but then again, i wont be stronger than him. so there

today when he was making us train some reflexes drill then we were all super tired (we = all the keepers la) and i was feeling my strained muscles then he suddenly shout straight at me "f***ed up!" then he ask me to dont slack like wah you cannot see my leg pain i trying to stretch stretch abit meh! stupid chinaman heh

anyawy tomorrow i going brandon's birthday party with jianying, woosheng, gareth, stanley, jerome and some others la haha should be quite fun la lol



haha i think nowadays i worry too much, got too many things going on in my life now la. some things must work hard to achieve, some things however hard you work also cant achieve. heh just do my best and fight through everything la and hope to come out tops at the end of it.

today the big fish from the small pond went into the larger pond, and realised that he was actually a very small fish compared to the rest of the fishes in that larger pond.

maybe you were wondering who that fish was, i can tell you that i was the fish, the fish who swam around the small pond thinking he was very big and ventured into the big pond before realising how small he really was.

today i started the day by waking up at around 830am and smsed zhizhi before he called me and bluffed me into going for today's youth team match against scotch college from australia. he said something like "if you all dont come down today ill get scolded lor, just come down la" and wahh i really believe leh i go call woosheng go too so he wouldnt get scolded because we all respect him then turn out he lie to us!

anyway we reached there and there were only two keepers, me and byron, a national goalie. hah so i just went there and just watched him play the first quarter and watched how the australian shots just flew so fast but he was able to block them. then second quarter was my turn to play and they didnt shoot much at me i let in a goal and saved a lob. heh third quarter i made a few saves that were quite easy and let in one or two goals.

haha then fourth quarter byron went in again and whooped the aussies again he is that pro la. hai anyway those youth team people (all like 18-20 years old) all started comparing me and byron and saying stuff like "walao he reaction slow leh" or "cannot pass very far leh" im sure lor im only bloody 15 and they make comparisons with national goalie! have they forgotten that they were once 15 before, and that they were this standard when they played?

they say until i also no confidence to pass far already actually can pass one but also dont dare la later get scolded lol haha these few times ive been training with the youth team my confidence has taken a huge whack and it has gone steadily all the way down. but hey its good for the long run la, can learn more from them.

haha but i duno whether i should go anymore, because it just kills my confidence la. help! help me make a decision can

should i continue living as the big fish in the small pond and let my confidence be sky high as it usually is, or go adapt to the larger pond with the larger fishes and let myself slowly improve? confidence is very important for goalie la i duno what i should do...

help

haha im supposed to be asleep now... but im listening (alright not really listening, but looking) to my friend with all his troubles.. haha i feel that really some people are very uncaring and they dont have any consideration for any other people, even if that other person cared for them so much.

cant stand these kind of people la especially when they do these kind of backstabbing actions... its like so unkind and i cant think how people will actually bear to do such stuff lor. hai... another late night for me la.

actually i was thinking of going to tomorrow's friendly against some australian team, playing for the national youth u18. but then now so late already, better not la later get whooped again.

today i went for the national youth training and got whooped by those national team people who came to train with the youth team. hah they read the game super well and all the rubbish stuff and tricks that i do that work with everyone always backfire against them LOL so now my self-esteem has taken a hell of a beating already hahahaha but ill be back for more!

haha anyway i just changed my layout again! haha i just changed the picture on the left it used to be damien duff (the screwup) but now it is the future of newcastle united football club! nzog is the hope for a better age (and it better be waaaay better or ill quit football forever)

haha okay gtg goodnight (morning)!

hehe im finally updating!

havent updated in a really long time and now that im back from polo trip in malacca, its a great time to rekindle the passion for blogging! haha havent found the need to blog much because nothing much to talk about and try to while away my time and shirk the homework that is always there during schooltime. hah even if got need to blog some stuff also cannot blog here la

anyway we came back on tuesday evening from malacca and i must say that i was really really fatigued. slept a total of 12 hours in the span of 3 nights so you can guess how i was feeling at that time. hah anyway lets see what happened during the trip...


DAY 1 (satu)

we embarked from rj at around 7am and set off for the second link causeway where we did all our crap (passport stamping, blah blah) and the stupid malaysian official had to go write in my passport "change photo" lor! i look so cute and chubby in that old photo change for what! stupid malaysian official i smile at him he gave me some dao look

heh so we went into malaysia and stopped over at yong peng, where i had been wanting to go for a really really long time. for what? to eat the ramly burger there! hahahah its really nice and juicy i must say hahahaha and we bought a few _ _ _ s at yong peng. i got 007 and haha must say its a significant improvement from last time shows. hah in the previous 007 james bond seemed too pro for everyone already, always so suave and cool, like no excitement. abit like jet li in martial arts movies la haha but at least in this movie his vulnerability came out a little, almost died, fell in love, kena conned, etc.

haha then our next stop was all the way at malacca pool already where we arrived LATE as usual, got me, tom and woosheng mah, always late so naturally we would be late for the match also hahahaha we played kuala lumpur youth team first and my my their centreman is good! but of course i saved alot of his shots la no doubt since i also very good thank you thank you very much and in the end we won by a few goals comfortably

and duno who forget to take photos so bleh no photos for kl match but at least we got to make quite a few friends they were quite friendly la kept talking to us lol

then we checked in at century mahkota hotel where it was actually service apartments and we got an apartment on the first floor of wing 6. we went in and immediately set about setting up tatwai's ps2 to start playing lol

we went out to do all the boring stuff like eating (yes, for once i felt eating was boring) and shopping (im sorry to say i dont share the view that shopping is fun, but i still bought alot!) before chionging back to play what else, ps2 again! haha our room was the noisiest cos like quite alot of people came to play the ps2 LOL



DAY 2 (dua)

after sleeping at 2am the night before, we had to wake up at 630 (stupid wake up call) and headed down to the lobby to have our breakfast. after breakfast we went back and slacked awhile before making our way down to malacca pool via coach and played the malacca youth team there.

the malacca team wasnt as strong as the kl team so we just raced to a few goal lead against them but putting in our second team the lead got slowly chipped away till we faced a deficit lol then we won the fourth quarter (thank you thank you who played well again) and we won the game by a goal hahahaha

i accidentally whacked this guy head when we were both swimming for the ball and after that i apologised then we started talking qutie abit and there, i made another new friend LOL

we made quite a few friends among them all see us all having fun with one another... raffles waterpolo people are all so friendly!

haha me trying to pass a long ball (i think it was a bad pass)

and of course, the perennial slacker, meaning me. hah i standing on the floor again LOL but it takes a certain heightt o be able to stand there you know! it was somewhere around 5 feet to 6 feet deep i think

after the match we went to go shopping and other stuff again before going dinner and more shopping and then back to the hotel for another ps2 marathon hahahaha oh and a picture from our day shopping! wahh i shouldnt have been caught anywhere near this! hahahaha

woah not bad right, the ideal shop for me man!

oh and i reached back to the hotel just nice to catch NEWCASTLE VS PORTSMOUTH though i havent dared to watch newcastle matches for a very long time cos i cant stand newcastle losing (haha i really am a really bad sore loser) but they won in the end! 1-0 win over portsmouth and it could have been much more... but 1-0 is good enough for me!


DAY 3 (lima)

we woke up super late before going for PT in the gym and sweating our asses off before our SOCCER TRAINING! hahaha we just anyhow played and boy was it fun! haha we played soccer in the tennis court how fun but im not complaining cos it really was fun! haha

after that we went for lunch on our own and once again slacked the whole day away shopping and slacking in our rooms doing crap like playing ps2 and for tatwai the day was about locking himself up in one of the rooms and duno doing what (though many people can profess to have made very good educated guesses indeed haha but lets not touch on that how should we say, sensitive subject.

haha then that night i slept at 530am cos woosheng jianying tom and brandon called me to go to their room and we all ended up having a heart to heart sharing session about our troubles and frustrations la haha really great time.

haha i find that alot of people like to confide in me about their troubles and many a time their secrets. haha i duno what i say or do but hey, they all confide in me! haha but yet i dont confide in them... maybe next time my career path shall be some psychiatrist or something or blahblah consultant lol


DAY 4 (empat)

we all had to haul ourselves from bed at 8am to go have breakfast before packing up and going for PT again. then after PT we went back to change to wash up and set off for singapore (by coach la of course).

and so here ended our voyage to malacca 2006. as wise men said, and see tow among them, all great things must come to an end. but lets hope the legacy of our raffles waterpolo b div batch of 2007 will never die, never end. i have true faith in this team man, i can just feel it.

i look into every single smiling face in this photo, and i know that i can trust every single one of them to do it right for us next year. okay maybe not all, maybe 1 or 2 cannot trust. but still, not bad la.