A new chapter is beginning...

you know, ive always wondered... two years down the road, three years down, 10 years down. will what i have done in waterpolo here in raffles affect what will be done throughout those years? will i leave a lasting legacy? how has my involvement in waterpolo for raffles changed or shaped the cca for what it is today and what it will become tomorrow?

one of the practices of The Leadership Challenge is to leave a legacy, and i wonder what legacy i have left or what legacy i can leave for my juniors to continue or to surpass. it strikes me that having given up 4-5 days a week of my life for 2 years just to train waterpolo, i havent had anything to show for it, i havent left anything behind to allow others to follow. what legacy have i left or what legacy can i leave?

i wonder, what i have trained so hard for 2 years for. to get suaned by a stupid musical group who get top 20 in singapore while we got 4th in singapore? why, even outram are better than them they got 6th in singapore! why did i train so hard for 2 years?

everytime i think about it i get so damned pissed like who gave them the bloody right to criticise our achievements. by criticising our achievements they are in turn criticising our efforts, our process. who are they to bloody criticise us when we train at least 5 times a week and they? they stepped up their training to a very intensive 3 times a week during holidays WOW im so impressed laaaa

its just insensitive people like these who get me down. just when i thought i was accepting it for what it is when such comments came in that really hurt me it brought back all the pain that i had experienced thats why i so damn hate you you understand or not you retard. gold so what i dont give a shit you are only top 20 in singapore but we are top 4 in singapore no basis for comparison at all.

im pissed.