its the feeling of wearing this over my heart that makes me wanna fight.
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Friday, March 30, 2007
its now late and tomorrow early morning i have a bayley meeting
but im feeling something that i have to blog about la.
.
having been a rafflesian for more than 3 years, it seems so bittersweet that in less 3 terms later, we will all be graduating from this school i can safely call my home. it has been a terrific home to me, dynamic, challenging, and full of people i know and love (not gay okay).
yet come monday, my years at ri will be put through an arduous and gruelling test. acsi. sometimes i feel that my life as a rafflesian is really complete, that my learning journey throughout my entire ri experience has really been great and ive tried to be the best person i could've been to all my friends throughout this journey they have made together with me.
yet somehow, there is something missing from this rafflesian experience that ive had. and that is glory, that is winning back something for the school. throughout my rafflesian life, it has been ingrained into me, into the badge i wear proudly over my breast, that raffles is the winning formula, the one destined to triumph over all obstacles.
and come monday, acsi beckon. and it is going to be no mean feat. i would consider myself as a rafflesian to be incomplete without ever playing in a national inter schools final, in front of a few hundred screaming and cheering boys, just for that shot at gold, just for that final shot at glory for my beloved school.
i am proud to say that i am a rafflesian. i am proud to say that i have lived the rafflesian way of life (including al the late nights and chionging of work and whatnots) and i am proud of being a rafflesian in general. YET THIS PRIDE IS NOT ENOUGH. i want to have something to show for my time here, something i can give back to the school, a legacy i want to leave for the school, for later batches of rafflesians. i dont want this unique rafflesian experience to just become a distant memory in my head. i want to win for the school.
i am one who feels very strongly for the school, and i will do anything within my capacity to get my team into the final of b boys waterpolo, and i know its gonna be hard, its gonna be tough, but i swear, im gonna fight. fight for my team, fight for the school, fight for raffles. its gonna be a hard fight and an unforgettable one. let this unforgettable battle be a victorious one. im not ready to just hope for a better age. i want to strive, i want to fight for this better age. i want to leave a legacy. raffles is what ive loved, what ive known and what i am. i better fight hard on monday.
no regrets.
but im feeling something that i have to blog about la.
.
having been a rafflesian for more than 3 years, it seems so bittersweet that in less 3 terms later, we will all be graduating from this school i can safely call my home. it has been a terrific home to me, dynamic, challenging, and full of people i know and love (not gay okay).
yet come monday, my years at ri will be put through an arduous and gruelling test. acsi. sometimes i feel that my life as a rafflesian is really complete, that my learning journey throughout my entire ri experience has really been great and ive tried to be the best person i could've been to all my friends throughout this journey they have made together with me.
yet somehow, there is something missing from this rafflesian experience that ive had. and that is glory, that is winning back something for the school. throughout my rafflesian life, it has been ingrained into me, into the badge i wear proudly over my breast, that raffles is the winning formula, the one destined to triumph over all obstacles.
and come monday, acsi beckon. and it is going to be no mean feat. i would consider myself as a rafflesian to be incomplete without ever playing in a national inter schools final, in front of a few hundred screaming and cheering boys, just for that shot at gold, just for that final shot at glory for my beloved school.
i am proud to say that i am a rafflesian. i am proud to say that i have lived the rafflesian way of life (including al the late nights and chionging of work and whatnots) and i am proud of being a rafflesian in general. YET THIS PRIDE IS NOT ENOUGH. i want to have something to show for my time here, something i can give back to the school, a legacy i want to leave for the school, for later batches of rafflesians. i dont want this unique rafflesian experience to just become a distant memory in my head. i want to win for the school.
i am one who feels very strongly for the school, and i will do anything within my capacity to get my team into the final of b boys waterpolo, and i know its gonna be hard, its gonna be tough, but i swear, im gonna fight. fight for my team, fight for the school, fight for raffles. its gonna be a hard fight and an unforgettable one. let this unforgettable battle be a victorious one. im not ready to just hope for a better age. i want to strive, i want to fight for this better age. i want to leave a legacy. raffles is what ive loved, what ive known and what i am. i better fight hard on monday.
no regrets.
Monday, March 26, 2007
Thursday, March 22, 2007
okay now i feel like blogging!
yesterday we beat chinese high 8-6 in waterpolo and i played all four quarters (with a slight absence of a minute when i cramped out and brian he was sent in before jiaolian recalled my services. haha not performance from me at least i was stable and didnt let many low shots in... but lucky for me, chinese high didnt shoot many low shots too. haha ohwells woosheng bet with me that he'd gimme 10 bucks and cut his hair bald if i conceded LESS than 5 goals but shit la, i conceded 5 (brian conceded 1 while i was cramping).
anyway it was a really great game and it is really quite a wonder that i can speak so sanely now because yesterday was just ONE BIG CRAZY DAY. like i couldnt sleep at all on tuesday night i just looked up the ceiling and turned around in bed but i just couldnt sleep... TOO DAMN NERVOUS. then in school i just sat at my seat with my mouth open like a goldfish and feeling tons of stress and the weight of expectation. haha really quite frightening but in the end, hey i did quite well so yeah.
anyway, i really respect the chinese high guys! they fought really hard, and so did we, and that made it a great match and a fantastic exhibition of b division standard waterpolo. our juniors were there watching us too so i hope they got some lessons of waterpolo out of that match too... and shek (my junior) said that i was fantastic! well i feel so good now :D
and today i went to school and just sat at my place and couldnt concentrate at all... just smiling all the way and prompted my chinese teacher to say that i looked damn pervert cos i was just smiling at her damn blissfully and thinking about yesterday's match... haha ohwells im innocent okay!
i hope we can play hwachong in the final because the fighting spirit that both teams have is really commendable and we respect one another because neither team "cheats" by playing overage players. so thats kinda good too and we provide good attacking waterpolo so thats another plus point. ohwells good luck chinese high!
okay next up BARKER on monday and we better when this and we're most probably through to the finals... but barker is tough. but im ready.
oh and btw i think chinese high damn lucky they got a cool coach renkai hahahaha i know him cos last time u18 we play then i was keeping and hwachong jc got a corner but i refuse to pass them the ball to wait for my team to get back in defence then he laugh at me and talk to me afterwards LOL
yesterday we beat chinese high 8-6 in waterpolo and i played all four quarters (with a slight absence of a minute when i cramped out and brian he was sent in before jiaolian recalled my services. haha not performance from me at least i was stable and didnt let many low shots in... but lucky for me, chinese high didnt shoot many low shots too. haha ohwells woosheng bet with me that he'd gimme 10 bucks and cut his hair bald if i conceded LESS than 5 goals but shit la, i conceded 5 (brian conceded 1 while i was cramping).
anyway it was a really great game and it is really quite a wonder that i can speak so sanely now because yesterday was just ONE BIG CRAZY DAY. like i couldnt sleep at all on tuesday night i just looked up the ceiling and turned around in bed but i just couldnt sleep... TOO DAMN NERVOUS. then in school i just sat at my seat with my mouth open like a goldfish and feeling tons of stress and the weight of expectation. haha really quite frightening but in the end, hey i did quite well so yeah.
anyway, i really respect the chinese high guys! they fought really hard, and so did we, and that made it a great match and a fantastic exhibition of b division standard waterpolo. our juniors were there watching us too so i hope they got some lessons of waterpolo out of that match too... and shek (my junior) said that i was fantastic! well i feel so good now :D
and today i went to school and just sat at my place and couldnt concentrate at all... just smiling all the way and prompted my chinese teacher to say that i looked damn pervert cos i was just smiling at her damn blissfully and thinking about yesterday's match... haha ohwells im innocent okay!
i hope we can play hwachong in the final because the fighting spirit that both teams have is really commendable and we respect one another because neither team "cheats" by playing overage players. so thats kinda good too and we provide good attacking waterpolo so thats another plus point. ohwells good luck chinese high!
okay next up BARKER on monday and we better when this and we're most probably through to the finals... but barker is tough. but im ready.
oh and btw i think chinese high damn lucky they got a cool coach renkai hahahaha i know him cos last time u18 we play then i was keeping and hwachong jc got a corner but i refuse to pass them the ball to wait for my team to get back in defence then he laugh at me and talk to me afterwards LOL
Monday, March 12, 2007
haha this period is like the apex of my sec 4 life. after 9th april my sec 4 life will just be a drone, i will just be an aimless raffles zombie hanging around after school with no cca to go to. haha i will feel damn aimless!
to me, this is the most important time of my ri life, possibly of my life so far. cos this time is when i put into use all of what i have learnt in my waterpolo journey thus far. subconsciously, this is what ive been working towards the past 1 and a quarter years, just aiming for my own chance to shine.
last year was when i was still sec 3, a greenhorn in nationals, having not played a game before. In our first game i had to play because our keeper injured himself so i had to take his place against a strong barker team and we played freaking well inclusive of myself but we still managed to lose 6-5 omg i was devastated.
i want to right all the wrongs i want to fight for myself, fight for the team, fight to put a smile on jiaolian's face, fight for the school! i want to bring back a gold for the school, i want to put raffles waterpolo back to where it belongs.
and about myself now. I STILL CANT GET TO THOSE LOW SHOTS omg i suck at low shots wtf howwww DIE omg i hate myself la arghhh those high shots im like damn imba but low shots... what the heck la how how how can anyone help me anot.
argh im freaking out. haha =(
tomorrow theres camp again and im waiting for my good friend to come back from shanghai. msn is just so boring la... :(
to me, this is the most important time of my ri life, possibly of my life so far. cos this time is when i put into use all of what i have learnt in my waterpolo journey thus far. subconsciously, this is what ive been working towards the past 1 and a quarter years, just aiming for my own chance to shine.
last year was when i was still sec 3, a greenhorn in nationals, having not played a game before. In our first game i had to play because our keeper injured himself so i had to take his place against a strong barker team and we played freaking well inclusive of myself but we still managed to lose 6-5 omg i was devastated.
i want to right all the wrongs i want to fight for myself, fight for the team, fight to put a smile on jiaolian's face, fight for the school! i want to bring back a gold for the school, i want to put raffles waterpolo back to where it belongs.
and about myself now. I STILL CANT GET TO THOSE LOW SHOTS omg i suck at low shots wtf howwww DIE omg i hate myself la arghhh those high shots im like damn imba but low shots... what the heck la how how how can anyone help me anot.
argh im freaking out. haha =(
tomorrow theres camp again and im waiting for my good friend to come back from shanghai. msn is just so boring la... :(
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